I am consiously making a desision to not eat much and i know it's bad because it will slow my metabolism and i wish i could say it's due to being dumped but it's not. I weigh 133.4 (a few day's ago this was) which i was always comfortable with and i am going to the gym 2 - 3 times a week but i still do not like my body but i think that is due to the fact that my ex weighed that to and he would be a size 10 in women's clothes, he was so skinny and i liked it. I will never be a size 10 - i can feel my hips and ribs as it is and can't really loose a lot there. I would not look healthy then anyway. It has just become habbit to make that desicion to not eat a lot even when i am really hungry. It has only started in the last week.

I want to loose weight and i want to diet yet i know that if i don't cut right down i will eat too much chocolate and cheese still but if i cut right down i will stop my metabolism and make myself ill. I do not want to be a fake 'ana' i just want to be smaller than my boyfriend and back where i was months ago. I will just eat what i want but the lowest calorie version of everything. I read the posts on here and see how obssesed everyone is and it seems silly, some genuinley do have eating disorders but they dont tend to blog about what they ate and their weight but more their feelings. I think anyone who is asking for an 'ana or mia buddy' needs to take a rain check. By all means i'll support you in loosing wieght but at least get some facts right first.

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• Eating little or nothing  slows down your metabolism therefore you do not burn calories very quickly

 

• Over exercising will burn muscle if you are not eating and this will make you weak (I can't remember were I read this but I read it somewhere)

 

• Eating nothing makes your body retain fat

 

• Men and women do not find someone that someone who  is only bones attractive

 

• If you keep it up you will ruin your insides for good and could kill yourself

 

• As soon as you start eating again you will gain the weight again  - so start now and break yourself in gently.
• Throwing up after meals ruins your insides completley because of all the acid your stomach produces.
  

Of course i am no expert and most people generally know this but just thought i'd put it out there for you to read so it might make you think. I realise if you genuinley do have an eating disorder then this will not help you and i really hope you are able to be strong enough to overcome it.


If you want to see my old account from when i was being a food freak before it is www.xanga.com/perfection_is_120